Leaving Home For Good!
Good Bye Cleveland! It's been real
Hello, my faithful readers! Did you miss me? Good, because I missed me. So apparently, I have to go back to work a lot sooner than expected. I didn’t think I had to return to “Lost” Angeles until July, but I guess my boss had other plans. It’s all good though. I love the fact that I will be making some steady money this summer. The freelance writing gig is having some technical difficulties and I have no choice but to be here for it. I am going to miss home; all the clean air (for the most part besides the damn pollen), all the TREES AND GRASS! I didn't know a person can miss maple and acorn trees this much. And the space! Everyone is not piled on top of each other. It's amazing. Nevertheless, I am coming to you today with a feeling I haven’t felt in a long time. When I get back to L.A., there can be no more playing around or dwelling in my sadness. I gotta get up!
This “firey” feeling came over me so suddenly. Lately, I have been thinking of manifesting my dreams and the truth; I hold all the keys to my success and anything I want, I can have. It's like a switch went off in my head. Now of course, I knew this already because I discuss this topic often in my blog. But, remember how long ago that was? I’ll say months! The past several weeks (before I came home) has been one hell of a challenge. Loneliness combined with not having a job is no joke. I didn’t think I could feel like that, and yet I found a couple people that I am close too has went through the same trials and tribulations. So again, this is another stepping stone to fight through in order to make it to the top.
For right now, money is a hardship. Getting back to Los Angeles is going to be a struggle but I am confident that everything will work itself out. After I get settled in, take care of my car and so forth (because it’s sitting in Ms. Anne’s driveway with a flat tire), it’s grind time. I plan on being as busy as possible. The biggest matter that I feel inspired about is finally writing my book. I see that it’s time to write the book I want and it’s not a romance novel. It’s fantasy.
I need to start believing in myself more. I am a dope ass talented person that loves the arts. Sometimes, I have a hard time expressing this because I still care what people think. Even though it’s slowly dissipating as I learn and grow, other people’s perception of me still lingers in my thoughts. Then, I want to do other creative things, but I feel since my siblings or friends are already doing it, I don’t want to step on their toes. But I don’t want to be just a writer. I’m already good at that. It’s time to see what else I can do.
Yeah, it’s been an inciteful time off. To top it off, I got sick (smh). My kidneys are already killing me because I don’t drink enough water, and now I caught a head cold from sleeping under the fan. I have body aches’, dizziness, nausea, and a fever so hot, that my mother didn’t want to get too close to me because she may have a hot flash. I’m annoyed with my body at this moment but hell, I know it’s my fault for not taking care of it. Anyway, I plan on doing a five-day water fast to get rid of it. I know this may look extreme, because it is. But I feel like I need the fast for other reasons as well, not just for my body. I want to thank everyone for reading this. I don’t thank you enough for you love and support of my blog. You are appreciated (Tupac voice). Until next time everyone…
Stay Positive. Stay Focused. Vibrate Higher.