Day 9 in L.A.



Friday is one of the sweetest days of the week. Not only is it the end of being at the j.o.b., but for me, it is the day before I move into my new place. It's not all mine but it’s a start. I don’t even mind the fact that I have five other roommates. I’m just glad I have a stable place to lay my head, comfortably at night. Thankfully, the apartment complex has a few very nice amenities. It has a free pool, a jacuzzi, and a decent work out room. All seems to be well with that.

I didn’t think it was going to happen, but I got one last paycheck from my last job at the clinic. It wasn’t much, but, it definitely helps. I haven’t eaten dinner in three or four days, so when I got that extra money added to my account, I went all out when I know I shouldn’t have. I went and ordered B-Dubs (Buffalo Wild Wings) and it was awesome! I’ll feel better if I cooked though. I can’t remember the last time I had a home-cooked meal.

Something interesting happened at work today. I had a good morning. I knew how to make all the drinks and remembered which buttons to press on the register. It felt good to finally know what to do without asking for help. I even got to know many of the students and teachers. The fashion majors excite me the most. Ever since I was little, I had a thing for fashion. At one point, I wanted to design clothes with a friend of mine in high school. Then I realized my passion for making clothing wasn’t as strong as it was for writing. I still love fashion though. The day was going by smooth until the middle of the day when the supervisor showed up. I don’t think she likes me. She’s very withdrawn and doesn’t like to engage in conversation with me. Sometimes, when I am talking to her, she doesn’t even look me in the eye. Her vibe is just off. I’m not going to say that I don’t like her per say, but I don’t. Her attitude stinks. Although, there’s a fact that I must remember that everyone does not have a heart like me. I can’t expect for people to be as bubbly or enthused as I am. Everyone is not my friend. That energy can be heartfelt from one form to another because it is so powerful.

I felt that since I had a little more money in my pocket than yesterday, I can put myself into a hotel for the night. Sleeping in my car was about to become a thing of the past. Besides, I needed to elevate my swollen legs because they were becoming worse. That morning they were so tight and puffy, I could barely drive. It was light weigh painful. And! I thought a nice shower couldn’t hurt me none.

A close friend of mine has the hook up with the hotels. When I used to ball out back in 2015, I would take trips by myself to recharge under his name. I would pay less and stay longer. So, today was no different. He made sure to tell me to remember to say who he was to me so I wouldn’t fuck things up for myself (side note: I told him about me blurting out to my co-workers about the pay rate thing). I was salty about him coming at me like that, but I understood. Needless to say, everything worked out. You guys, when I tell you, I literally cried in the shower because it felt so good… man!! Never should you cry overtaking a simple shower. Instantly I saw a difference in skin and mood. Gazing at my body in the mirror, I could see that I have been sun-kissed by Cali’s gorgeous sun. I’ll show pictures. Yes, I was fascinated by how the water’s forceful pellets cleaned my skin, I took pictures. Sue me!

I can’t wait to climb under the fluffy comforters and go to sleep. I need to calm my mind and rest my body for I put it through so much. Until next time…

Stay Positive. Stay Focused. Vibrate Higher.