A Break From The Big City
I am home now! And I am sure I am staying for over a month. Everyone keeps asking me when I am leaving as if I have things figured out. I barely planned this trip back home; me coming here was a surprise to my family. By the way, I have no idea how the hell I am going to get back. I'm basically forcing my family members to pay for my plane ticket that I have no money to buy.Ah, the perks of having family.
I couldn't wait to leave Los Angeles I swear. I knew the summer was approaching with events I knew would be fun, but I had only myself to do them with! As I explained before, I am tired of doing shit by my lonesome. I needed some love around me and there was none where I was. So, I took a packed flight to Cleveland to revive myself. I even met a nice guy sitting next to me on the plane and we had a real interesting talk. To make a long conversation short, he basically told me how his family owned an avocado farm in Mexico, and he was the one that had to travel around the WORLD to sell their avocados'. He was telling me that it took him a year of getting doors slammed in his face before he got his first buyer. After that, the rest was history. He began gaining clientelle throughout the United States and parts of India and Thailand. I just know he making a killin ghere in the U.S. because of the vegan epidemic. I'm a little salty I don't remember his name because I appreciated the talk. He's made enought money to take care of his ENTIRE family. I'm talking about mommy, daddy, sister, brother, cousins, uncles ect.
He kept telling me to never give up on my dreams because they do come true with consistency. He also mentioned what so many others have said to me before; there will be people closest to you that will doubt you or turn their backs on you. This must be a die-hard statement that is universally true! No one, whether they are successful or on their way to becoming successful has left this piece of advice out of their repetua. I am not looking to lose friends or family; however, I am always keeping my eyes open for any sort of negative energy that isn’t coming from myself.
So far, the time I am spending at home has been pure tranquility. I’ve just been resting, and I have only seen two of my friends thus far. That’s not a problem or anything, after all, I have a month to see everyone I NEED to see. I may even chill with some strange faces that I haven’t seen in a long time. Only time can tell. I am very optimistic and excited for what this summer may bring. I know it is going to be a summer I will not forget because I am demanding it to be that way. It may take a minute for the universe to get in line with my request, however, I am helping it along by opening a few doors myself and seeing what could be behind them.
I do have some good news to tell everyone though. I am now what you consider a freelance writer. Yay!! I am writing for an online publication called, Hollywood Blvd magazine. Honestly, this is what I've been praying for; a job where I can write and get paid. The money isn’t much, but I don’t care. I feel it’s going to get me the recognition I need in order to excel in my writing career….as far as respect from my fellow writers. I feel that I am presently paving my own way for my career and it feels great! I have visions of what I will be doing sometimes with my writing and let me tell you, it’s a sweet fucking life. I can see myself intimately interviewing those that I admired for long time. One example is Rihanna. I can't wait to sit down with her a pick her brain about the sacrafices she made to made to beome one the most accomplished and influential icons of our generation. Nevertheless, I still envision myself chill and humble through the respect and recognition. This is the life I dream for myself every day. Shout out to the dream.
In conclusion, I've noticed a very negative quality about myself; I am impatient. I want my happiness and success to happen overnight because of what I am seeing on social media. I remember a time when I didn’t mind waiting on something because I knew I was going to get it. Now, you can’t pay me enough to wait patiently for my food in a fast food line. Nah, I’m not that anal about it, but as far as my career goes, it literally feels painful to have to wait and pretend like everything is alright! I must get over it because I am noticing that I’m living in darkness on most days. I find myself being so concerned with the future that I don’t breathe in the beauty of the present. That’s so crazy yet so common with many people my age. I had a talk with my friend and she felt the same exact way. What happened to us (that’s a rhetorical question by the way)? Who knew that most of our troubles would be placed moreso in the mind? Hmm...anywho, I need to stop blogging and grab a bite to eat. French toast is calling my name at the moment. Until next time…
Stay Focused. Stay Positive. Vibrate Higher.