I've Made My Decision
Other individual's opinions can kill your optimism. That is why I highly recommend checking in with yourself first, making a firm decision, have all the details or whatever that needs to be worked out, done. Then, that is when you tell others of your plan. By doing it this way, you won’t have anyone in your head ruffling around every possible thought because you already made a firm decision. If you're anything like myself, it can be a bit difficult to make a decision due to overthinking. There's a process of a lot of back and forth between your heart and your head on what's best for you. Sometimes, only sometimes you may need the advice of your closest friends or even the unbiased opinion of a stranger to help accumulate enough evidence of what will work and what won't. There are times when the opinions of others are necessary when your trying to build a case about something or a place. It's okay to ask for the advice, but, too many "what you think about this?" or “what should I do?” will mentally leave you fucked up, I promise. Meditate on what you want, make a list for what best fits your needs, and then go with that.
My best friends always tell me that I value numerous opinions. I realized a long time ago that it’s true. As of right now, I am on my way to changing that about myself. At this moment, I am making decisions according to what makes me happy. I know others are not going to agree, but, I gotta figure out MY life based on my needs and desires. I know what and who I strive to be; its' the road getting there that's a little foggy and unsure. Nevertheless, I must trust that on the right path no matter a “wrong“ or ”right” decision. I am learning that life is 100% a mental and spiritual battle between your heart, mind, and soul. You really must go through shit and figure it out on your own. No one, and I mean NO ONE knows what's best for you, but you. It’s your life. What kind of story do you want to remember when your old and wise? Are you going to be proud of the tale your telling, or are you going to be ashamed because the voice of others mattered so much to you? There are two things I know for sure of what my life needs: the need to be free to travel and somehow successfully writing while doing so. I have a feeling everything else will fall into place.
I didn't expect trusting my intuition would take some much time. I felt that because I am such an empath and a spiritual person that it would come easy to me. I reckon this spiritual journey is going to get the best of me. But I'll do my best to have it roll down my backside because I know it's all apart of the process. Pain, frustration, sadness, feeling alone, is guaranteed throughout life. Why add worry and confusion to the picture. As I always say, it's better said than done, but at some point, in our lives, the mantra of, "Fuck it!" becomes an everyday thing. I wish nothing but the best for everyone on this journey we call life. Keep growing to the best of your ability. Try new things to unlock parts of your brain, you had no idea were there. That's the beauty we are here to discover: having a taste of things our hearts and bodies wishes to uncover. I have chosen to listen to heart, and even though my ego loves to get in the way sometimes, I do my best to let my heart win every time. Until next time…
Stay Focused. Stay Positive. Vibrate Higher. Peace